OK you are going to find this a bit weird, I do, but for quite some time I seem to look at digital clocks and see them at exactly 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 or 5:55 in the night or in my car or wherever! Three numbers together, more and more frequently it's getting spooky. So I started looking at numerology sites and Angel numbers etc to see if it means something and low and behold it does. I'm not a great believer of the supernatural but like to keep an open mind. Most of the sites I've read have shown these numbers are positive signs that my guardian angel is trying to show its presence, no mention of it being anything negative or sinister, so my interpretation has been that with a lot of sickness in close people around me recently then it's a reassuring hug from possibly my mum who only died two years ago!
That's quite comforting and pleasant but this morning was very different. Yesterday I visited my poorly sister and also had two close friends having hospital treatments and they were texting me their progress. In the early hours I stirred and rolled over to see the time, it was 5:05 but all I could see was SOS......that was a bit scary!
What do you think, should I just ignore it as coincidence or look into it more?
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Friday, 20 May 2011
Wednesday, 18 May 2011
Spain holiday - 9th to 16th May 2011
Destination = Pinar de Campoverde, Pilar de la Horadada, Costa Calida, Spain.
Hubby's friend has a villa which they use a lot but does occasionally rent it out to family or friends, he also keeps a car valet parked at the airport which we rented from him too.....all at mates rates :o)
Monday 9th - Leisurely start as we didn't need to leave home till 8am, which is quite late for us when flying off somewhere. Happy to report that flights were on time and no huge queues, although we haven't really got the hang of this Ryanair, cheap flight, no allocated seats, type of flying so we didn't get to the departure gate until after we'd stopped for breakfast so we ended up not being able to find two seats together, but I read the whole journey so don't suppose it really mattered! Actually it amused me that I'd actually chosen a short story (189 pages) that took me almost the exact time of the flight to read.....how clever eh? Easy baggage collection at Murcia Airport and our car was there waiting for us. We couldn't actually get the sat nav to work but we had printed directions so got to the villa with ease. The villa was lovely, spacious, very well equipped and on two stories but as there's a double bedroom on the ground floor and a bathroom and only the two of us we won't bother using any of the upstairs. Outside there were sundecks and eating areas and planted areas and an outdoor pool. Our first toe test proved that the pool was still a bit too cold for us to venture into yet but we did have a sunbathe by the poolside. So wanting to get the lie of the land we went for a walk around the village and soon discovered it was like any housing estate but very clean and extremely quiet. Just opposite the villa was a little row of shops all designed to cater for the English ex-pats and tourists. Not totally to my taste for a Spanish holiday but would prove to be convenient, like not wanting to go far on our first night so choosing to have dinner at 9pm in The Portabello, an English style pub run by English people. I had a prawn salad while hubby tucked into gammon and chips and sat happily watching football on the big screens. Also happening back home we knew, was our daughter going off to see a trailer-camper she was hoping to buy, well she did buy it and sent me a photo by MMS to prove that she had succeeded her first ever tow with this very big trailer and it was now on our drive...Well done to her but unfortunately the MMS cost me £2 to retrieve!!!
Tuesday 10th - We both slept well in a really comfortable bed and I love it that the windows have the blackout shutters so the room was still dark in the mornings! We did get another text from our daughter who said they were so excited with their new purchase that they had decided to camp in it immediately to try it all out....on our drive! Then off we headed in the car to San Pedro beach (we'd worked out how to use the sat nav by this time) and headed first for an English breakfast. There was a long walkway alongside the beach and we saw people covering themselves in the famous black mud then lying in the sun for it to bake onto them, not sure what its medicinal benefits are but they all seemed to be enjoying it. Then we noticed a formation fly past, and hubby said we were near the military air base and these were their pilots obviously practicing their display routines, so we settled down on the beach and enjoyed an amazing free air show. We also enjoyed an ice cream (which was very green) and bought our three postcards then on the way back we stopped at the supermarket to get some provisions for breakfasts (really don't want another English fry up) so fruit for me and cornflakes for him. That evening we decided to take the long walk down to another pub that had been recommended, an Irish pub this time! Oh dear it was also quiz night! But the advantage of somewhere to walk to did mean hubby could have a few pints so we stayed and ate outside (roast chicken and chips) but didn't stay long after we'd eaten and walked back up the long hill and settled in with the TV and some Grand Designs (satelite tv with all the English channels = happy hubby).
Wednesday 11th - So started the day with fruit/cereal breakfast then off to find another beach at Torre de Horadada and Playa mil Palmeras. We did lots of walking and driving as it was too windy to sit on the sand, then back for an afternoon relaxing at the villa for a bit of sunbathing, a bit inside, a bit of crosswording and a bit of reading. I wrote and then posted the three postcards, because I do like to do them early in the holiday so they get back to the UK before we do! For dinner that evening we drove down to a restaurant called Treetops (another recommended) and that night they had a steak and wine deal for 20 euros per couple so we both had the steak and shared the bottle! Then back to watch the film Benjamin Button that was in the cupboard on DVD, it was very good but somewhat dragged out a bit. Late evening our daughter sent a text saying she was having a panic and are we near the two earthquakes that have just happened in southern Spain. We knew nothing about it, so tried to find a Spanish TV channel to see if we could get any information, but couldn't.
Thursday 12th - We had a lazy villa day and managed to find some news off the two earthquakes at Larco, which was about 60k from where we were, they said it was the worst they had experienced for 50 years and 10 people had been killed. My brother-in-lawA had also text to check we were OK, reassured everyone we were fine. We had lunch over the road at the Pasty Shack and headed out about 4pm, but all the shops were shut so we headed to the beach and marina at San Javier, very pretty place. Then came back and later had dinner in Restaurant Mary also over the road. I nearly had my paella but they said it would take 40mins to prepare and we'd heard that the Irish pub, Fibber McGees, was having a blues night so thought we'd eat something quicker and head down there. Glad we did actually because the two Spanish guys that performed blues all night were very good.
Friday 13th - We didn't get up till 9am ish and had a very lazy start so no chance of getting to the shops before they siesta! So we sunbathed/read/crosswords etc and finally left the villa about 4pm and headed to Torrevejo for a lovely walk along the beach and through lots of market stalls (all quite tacky). We stopped for an ice cream which I managed to drip all down me (hubby said it was due to the date). Then back to the villa by 8pm. We'd only bought 4 tshirts, two rings and a little train, so I was stressing a bit about having enough gifts to take home. We didn't bother with dinner that night as neither of us was hungry so stayed in and watched The Castaway/Tom Hanks from the video collection in the cupboard, which we both really enjoyed.
Saturday 14th - I got up at 7:30am (an hour before hubby) and checked emails etc online as I'd found a free wifi connection from halfway up the stairs, sitting on a cushion as they are very cold marble stairs. Eventually we went for a long walk on the beach at San Pedro all the way to San Javier (about 5k) then found a lovely beachside restaurant for lunch where hubby agreed to share my long awaited paella (they'd only cook it for two as it takes so long to cook and comes out as a huge flat pan to share) it was delicious! Then of course we had the long walk back. It was about 25 to 30 degrees C all day and I got a bit burnt on my back without realising it. Of course we didn't need dinner that night so had a TV evening again, mostly Britain's Got Talent which was very funny.
Sunday 15th - We were up early and pulled up the blinds to find a very cloudy sky and then some rain so we did nothing but a bit of reading and crosswords till 3pm ish then went for a very windy walk on Playa de la Horadada beach which totally blew the cobwebs (and my new haircut) away! A card on the fridge recommended dinner at the Rebate restaurant, it was excellent (hubby had steak and I had sea bass with garlic oil). The whole place was quite classy and the staff were very attentive. Outside there was a large pond with ducks and baby ducklings swimming and in a nearby pen was an ostrich. There was a wedding reception going on in the function room next door too. On the way back we stopped off at the Irish pub for a Rockabilly band, they were really good and had the totally packed pub bouncing. We didn't stay long though as only sitting room was outside and it was getting a bit chilly. A really lovely last night.
Monday 16th - It seemed too much time to kill before our flight home but not enough time to go anywhere, so we very slowly cleared up, emptied the rubbish and stripped the bed then because we were packed and ready to go in plenty of time we went over the road and had a proper lunch at The Portabello pub, in case there wasn't much at the airport. I even found and bought a book at the pub to take back for the children "Sophie visits Spain" for some language learning. Drove the car back to the airport car park and they drove us right to the airport doors, then took the car to keep it safe till it's needed again (such a useful and easy service). We had a good flight home and we sat together, only because we queued at the departure gate for an hour and half (stupid system). On the bus back to the car park we were saying how we'd travelled without any problems just before having a problem getting out of the long stay car park!!! Sooooo eventually got home about 7:30pm UK time.
All-in-all a lovely holiday and proof that hubby and I can survive a week alone together :o)
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Hubby's friend has a villa which they use a lot but does occasionally rent it out to family or friends, he also keeps a car valet parked at the airport which we rented from him too.....all at mates rates :o)
Monday 9th - Leisurely start as we didn't need to leave home till 8am, which is quite late for us when flying off somewhere. Happy to report that flights were on time and no huge queues, although we haven't really got the hang of this Ryanair, cheap flight, no allocated seats, type of flying so we didn't get to the departure gate until after we'd stopped for breakfast so we ended up not being able to find two seats together, but I read the whole journey so don't suppose it really mattered! Actually it amused me that I'd actually chosen a short story (189 pages) that took me almost the exact time of the flight to read.....how clever eh? Easy baggage collection at Murcia Airport and our car was there waiting for us. We couldn't actually get the sat nav to work but we had printed directions so got to the villa with ease. The villa was lovely, spacious, very well equipped and on two stories but as there's a double bedroom on the ground floor and a bathroom and only the two of us we won't bother using any of the upstairs. Outside there were sundecks and eating areas and planted areas and an outdoor pool. Our first toe test proved that the pool was still a bit too cold for us to venture into yet but we did have a sunbathe by the poolside. So wanting to get the lie of the land we went for a walk around the village and soon discovered it was like any housing estate but very clean and extremely quiet. Just opposite the villa was a little row of shops all designed to cater for the English ex-pats and tourists. Not totally to my taste for a Spanish holiday but would prove to be convenient, like not wanting to go far on our first night so choosing to have dinner at 9pm in The Portabello, an English style pub run by English people. I had a prawn salad while hubby tucked into gammon and chips and sat happily watching football on the big screens. Also happening back home we knew, was our daughter going off to see a trailer-camper she was hoping to buy, well she did buy it and sent me a photo by MMS to prove that she had succeeded her first ever tow with this very big trailer and it was now on our drive...Well done to her but unfortunately the MMS cost me £2 to retrieve!!!
Tuesday 10th - We both slept well in a really comfortable bed and I love it that the windows have the blackout shutters so the room was still dark in the mornings! We did get another text from our daughter who said they were so excited with their new purchase that they had decided to camp in it immediately to try it all out....on our drive! Then off we headed in the car to San Pedro beach (we'd worked out how to use the sat nav by this time) and headed first for an English breakfast. There was a long walkway alongside the beach and we saw people covering themselves in the famous black mud then lying in the sun for it to bake onto them, not sure what its medicinal benefits are but they all seemed to be enjoying it. Then we noticed a formation fly past, and hubby said we were near the military air base and these were their pilots obviously practicing their display routines, so we settled down on the beach and enjoyed an amazing free air show. We also enjoyed an ice cream (which was very green) and bought our three postcards then on the way back we stopped at the supermarket to get some provisions for breakfasts (really don't want another English fry up) so fruit for me and cornflakes for him. That evening we decided to take the long walk down to another pub that had been recommended, an Irish pub this time! Oh dear it was also quiz night! But the advantage of somewhere to walk to did mean hubby could have a few pints so we stayed and ate outside (roast chicken and chips) but didn't stay long after we'd eaten and walked back up the long hill and settled in with the TV and some Grand Designs (satelite tv with all the English channels = happy hubby).
Wednesday 11th - So started the day with fruit/cereal breakfast then off to find another beach at Torre de Horadada and Playa mil Palmeras. We did lots of walking and driving as it was too windy to sit on the sand, then back for an afternoon relaxing at the villa for a bit of sunbathing, a bit inside, a bit of crosswording and a bit of reading. I wrote and then posted the three postcards, because I do like to do them early in the holiday so they get back to the UK before we do! For dinner that evening we drove down to a restaurant called Treetops (another recommended) and that night they had a steak and wine deal for 20 euros per couple so we both had the steak and shared the bottle! Then back to watch the film Benjamin Button that was in the cupboard on DVD, it was very good but somewhat dragged out a bit. Late evening our daughter sent a text saying she was having a panic and are we near the two earthquakes that have just happened in southern Spain. We knew nothing about it, so tried to find a Spanish TV channel to see if we could get any information, but couldn't.
Thursday 12th - We had a lazy villa day and managed to find some news off the two earthquakes at Larco, which was about 60k from where we were, they said it was the worst they had experienced for 50 years and 10 people had been killed. My brother-in-lawA had also text to check we were OK, reassured everyone we were fine. We had lunch over the road at the Pasty Shack and headed out about 4pm, but all the shops were shut so we headed to the beach and marina at San Javier, very pretty place. Then came back and later had dinner in Restaurant Mary also over the road. I nearly had my paella but they said it would take 40mins to prepare and we'd heard that the Irish pub, Fibber McGees, was having a blues night so thought we'd eat something quicker and head down there. Glad we did actually because the two Spanish guys that performed blues all night were very good.
Friday 13th - We didn't get up till 9am ish and had a very lazy start so no chance of getting to the shops before they siesta! So we sunbathed/read/crosswords etc and finally left the villa about 4pm and headed to Torrevejo for a lovely walk along the beach and through lots of market stalls (all quite tacky). We stopped for an ice cream which I managed to drip all down me (hubby said it was due to the date). Then back to the villa by 8pm. We'd only bought 4 tshirts, two rings and a little train, so I was stressing a bit about having enough gifts to take home. We didn't bother with dinner that night as neither of us was hungry so stayed in and watched The Castaway/Tom Hanks from the video collection in the cupboard, which we both really enjoyed.
Saturday 14th - I got up at 7:30am (an hour before hubby) and checked emails etc online as I'd found a free wifi connection from halfway up the stairs, sitting on a cushion as they are very cold marble stairs. Eventually we went for a long walk on the beach at San Pedro all the way to San Javier (about 5k) then found a lovely beachside restaurant for lunch where hubby agreed to share my long awaited paella (they'd only cook it for two as it takes so long to cook and comes out as a huge flat pan to share) it was delicious! Then of course we had the long walk back. It was about 25 to 30 degrees C all day and I got a bit burnt on my back without realising it. Of course we didn't need dinner that night so had a TV evening again, mostly Britain's Got Talent which was very funny.
Sunday 15th - We were up early and pulled up the blinds to find a very cloudy sky and then some rain so we did nothing but a bit of reading and crosswords till 3pm ish then went for a very windy walk on Playa de la Horadada beach which totally blew the cobwebs (and my new haircut) away! A card on the fridge recommended dinner at the Rebate restaurant, it was excellent (hubby had steak and I had sea bass with garlic oil). The whole place was quite classy and the staff were very attentive. Outside there was a large pond with ducks and baby ducklings swimming and in a nearby pen was an ostrich. There was a wedding reception going on in the function room next door too. On the way back we stopped off at the Irish pub for a Rockabilly band, they were really good and had the totally packed pub bouncing. We didn't stay long though as only sitting room was outside and it was getting a bit chilly. A really lovely last night.
Monday 16th - It seemed too much time to kill before our flight home but not enough time to go anywhere, so we very slowly cleared up, emptied the rubbish and stripped the bed then because we were packed and ready to go in plenty of time we went over the road and had a proper lunch at The Portabello pub, in case there wasn't much at the airport. I even found and bought a book at the pub to take back for the children "Sophie visits Spain" for some language learning. Drove the car back to the airport car park and they drove us right to the airport doors, then took the car to keep it safe till it's needed again (such a useful and easy service). We had a good flight home and we sat together, only because we queued at the departure gate for an hour and half (stupid system). On the bus back to the car park we were saying how we'd travelled without any problems just before having a problem getting out of the long stay car park!!! Sooooo eventually got home about 7:30pm UK time.
All-in-all a lovely holiday and proof that hubby and I can survive a week alone together :o)
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Wednesday, 4 May 2011
Surrounded by cancer.....
I can't believe how many people that I am directly linked to have had cancer, died from cancer or are still battling with cancer! There are even more people that are just one step away from a direct link too! Why?
Is it that cancer in all its various forms are more prevalent now, or just more talked about? Or is it because I'm older I'm nearer to the age people are struck down with it? Or are there in fact a growing list of forms this dreadful disease can take, more parts of the body it will attack?
Is it the way we live that is triggering its hold on us? I've heard that drinking from a plastic water bottle that has been allowed to get warm in the car can cause cancer! So perhaps it is our exhaust fumes, our processed foods, our man-made fibers etc etc that are killing us? I've also recently discovered that my ethnic origin makes me a higher risk too!
All I ever hope for is that our ever increasing education will inform us to change the things that are bad and help the scientists to find better treatments or perhaps even a cure!
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Is it that cancer in all its various forms are more prevalent now, or just more talked about? Or is it because I'm older I'm nearer to the age people are struck down with it? Or are there in fact a growing list of forms this dreadful disease can take, more parts of the body it will attack?
Is it the way we live that is triggering its hold on us? I've heard that drinking from a plastic water bottle that has been allowed to get warm in the car can cause cancer! So perhaps it is our exhaust fumes, our processed foods, our man-made fibers etc etc that are killing us? I've also recently discovered that my ethnic origin makes me a higher risk too!
All I ever hope for is that our ever increasing education will inform us to change the things that are bad and help the scientists to find better treatments or perhaps even a cure!
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Monday, 4 April 2011
Weekend by the sea....
My BestFriendM gave me her holiday cottage for the weekend to take my SisterM (who is poorly) and our two husbands. Here's my 'thank-you' email to her below...
From: me
To: BestFriendM
Subject: Lovely weekend
Date: Mon, 4 Apr 2011 08:20:02 +0100
Hi BestFriendM
From: me
To: BestFriendM
Subject: Lovely weekend
Date: Mon, 4 Apr 2011 08:20:02 +0100
Hi BestFriendM
We really did have a lovely weekend, thank you :o)
Before we saw you Friday, SisterM had unpacked and said how lovely the cottage felt, and we had been out for a walk along the beach (up the bank and turn right) in the late afternoon sunshine so everything sparkled. Dinner in the FBI was OK (to be honest nothing great which surprised me) but we all enjoyed it and I'd had a glass of wine before we went and I'd taken a bottle of Baileys and had a large one when we got back so I was nicely relaxed!
Saturday while we lazily pottered SisterM also said what great taste you have and how she loved the way you'd furnished and she really liked the bed linen on the double and all your ornaments etc. She was amazed how you provided EVERYTHING and that you did all your own cleaning "as it's spotless"! Have to say that they are not always the easiest to please but this pleased them both a lots.......isn't it great that they loved it as much as we already do :o)))
Saturday we walked to the jetty and had a lovely chat with FriendA, then back to the FBI at 11am to meet some friends SisterM and bilA had made on their New Zealand holiday but haven't seen since, they live in Colchester and come to Felixstowe a lot so when they knew M&A would be there they came specially to see them. Then we went for another walk (down by the pier end) and a cafe lunch, then to the shops, then to Languard Fort and Bencotto's for dinner - got there 6:45pm and that was perfect as it soon got very busy indeed, soooo glad I'd rang you! Again enjoyed the wine before and the Baileys after so quite a boozy weekend for me hahahaha
Sunday market of course and chips on the front and a long walk along the prom then unfortunately our final tourist stop was A&E as the wound on SisterM's permanent stomach drain had been weeping a lot and the dressing was pulling and quite sore. Can't believe she came out of hospital on Tuesday and hadn't even been contacted by the district nurse yet! Anyway luckily we were only in there for an hour and a half and she said she was so pleased I'd bullied her into going as she felt relieved that they had looked at it and there was no infection and it just needed a change of dressing. Phew.
So, the key is in the letter box as requested, I'd stripped the beds and with the used towels heaped the laundry by the washing machine but unfortunately as we ended up leaving in a bit of a rush for A&E I forgot to put the rubbish out, sorry.
Thank you so much.
love you lots xxxxxxx
Monday, 28 March 2011
I'm in a blog bog.....
...no not my blog, can't be bogged down with this one as I don't update it often enough, but I'm getting a bit swamped with reading other blogs.
The first blog I was ever introduced to was my daughter's, then she guided me to some of the blogs of her friends, mainly after a big group gathering or holiday because her friends would post their own photos and highlights etc. It felt like being a fly on the wall of my daughter's life, isn't that every mother's dream? Of course the comments made on these posts are often by other of their friends that I don't know and a few click click clicks later and I find I've bookmarked and am regularly reading more blogs than I should healthily give my time to!
But how can I motivate myself to get off this laptop and not just quickly check on the worlds of those people I feel I've got to know. Those who give their own ideas for Home Educating their children I find interesting as my grandchildren are HE'd. Some writers of course are more interesting than others but they all offer some form of entertainment, either giving me recipes or crafts to try, insights to living in other parts of the world (just found a lovely writer in Israel), families who have bravely changed their lifestyles (emigrating or living in a camper van) or just by being so beautifully written!
Hey I'm middle aged and no longer working so with plenty of time to now explore an internet I never really had time for before, so what's the problem apart from my very under exercised body! Then the next stage in my internet education was to find out that all is not 'real'! OK I'm not totally gullible and realise that even I may slightly exaggerate when I describe an event so it reads better, however, during a discussion with my daughter it was explained to me that someone who is a close friend with my favourite blogger has confirmed that lots of it is fiction just to make a great story. Another person on my bookmarks who often amazed me as she is such a prolific blogger, it was then pointed out, that she would never have the time for her or her family to actually do all that her posts implied they do and be able to blog about it too! But why? Well the whole commercial side of the internet was explained how people can earn money blogging and linking and reviewing and of course promoting no end of external products and projects and of course how you need to promote your own blog/twitter/facebook/on line shop to increase the following, to increase the promotion and ultimately to increase the income! Makes the openness of people sharing their lives all sound a bit fake and sordid doesn't it?
So today I've had a look through my bookmarks and decided that actually I'm not going to delete any of them, does it really matter what is truth or fiction if I'm not required to act on what I'm reading. I love reading novels as much as biographies so the same must be true for blogs. I may read a blog where I know the writer is pouring out her deepest feelings wanting the page to carry some of her pain, this is therapy for that writer and if her readers send hugs and words of support that must be so helpful and not sordid at all.
So I'll keep reading and blogging and trying to motivate myself to look away and do something more active for a while. And to any readers of this blog I'd like to say I'm not clever enough to write fiction and have absolutely no want to earn money from this as it would mean a commitment I'm far too lazy to make, so what you read is 'real' but in the great scheme of things do you care!
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The first blog I was ever introduced to was my daughter's, then she guided me to some of the blogs of her friends, mainly after a big group gathering or holiday because her friends would post their own photos and highlights etc. It felt like being a fly on the wall of my daughter's life, isn't that every mother's dream? Of course the comments made on these posts are often by other of their friends that I don't know and a few click click clicks later and I find I've bookmarked and am regularly reading more blogs than I should healthily give my time to!
But how can I motivate myself to get off this laptop and not just quickly check on the worlds of those people I feel I've got to know. Those who give their own ideas for Home Educating their children I find interesting as my grandchildren are HE'd. Some writers of course are more interesting than others but they all offer some form of entertainment, either giving me recipes or crafts to try, insights to living in other parts of the world (just found a lovely writer in Israel), families who have bravely changed their lifestyles (emigrating or living in a camper van) or just by being so beautifully written!
Hey I'm middle aged and no longer working so with plenty of time to now explore an internet I never really had time for before, so what's the problem apart from my very under exercised body! Then the next stage in my internet education was to find out that all is not 'real'! OK I'm not totally gullible and realise that even I may slightly exaggerate when I describe an event so it reads better, however, during a discussion with my daughter it was explained to me that someone who is a close friend with my favourite blogger has confirmed that lots of it is fiction just to make a great story. Another person on my bookmarks who often amazed me as she is such a prolific blogger, it was then pointed out, that she would never have the time for her or her family to actually do all that her posts implied they do and be able to blog about it too! But why? Well the whole commercial side of the internet was explained how people can earn money blogging and linking and reviewing and of course promoting no end of external products and projects and of course how you need to promote your own blog/twitter/facebook/on line shop to increase the following, to increase the promotion and ultimately to increase the income! Makes the openness of people sharing their lives all sound a bit fake and sordid doesn't it?
So today I've had a look through my bookmarks and decided that actually I'm not going to delete any of them, does it really matter what is truth or fiction if I'm not required to act on what I'm reading. I love reading novels as much as biographies so the same must be true for blogs. I may read a blog where I know the writer is pouring out her deepest feelings wanting the page to carry some of her pain, this is therapy for that writer and if her readers send hugs and words of support that must be so helpful and not sordid at all.
So I'll keep reading and blogging and trying to motivate myself to look away and do something more active for a while. And to any readers of this blog I'd like to say I'm not clever enough to write fiction and have absolutely no want to earn money from this as it would mean a commitment I'm far too lazy to make, so what you read is 'real' but in the great scheme of things do you care!
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Tuesday, 22 March 2011
Coming home empty handed.....
Had to pop into town today as both Hubby and I had our two yearly appointment at Specsavers. Hubby didn't have any change to his prescription so he just paid for the eye test, but my right eye seems to have got a bit weaker so all tests done I moved onto choosing frames and decided to have one clear pair and one pair as sunglasses as my usual choice of 'reactions' are never quite good enough for driving etc. So upgraded verifocals + anti glare coating on the clear pair and polarized lenses on the sunglasses came to a very expensive bill even using their BOGOF. Nothing to show for it yet, have to go back in two weeks to collect.
As we were in town, rare for me, I said I wanted to look for some new bras......never easy as I've what Gok Wan would call 'big bangers' so very limited on styles that come in my size, plus I find underwired very uncomfortable making what's available even more limited. Well after two shops and in and out of changing rooms I gave up!
I couldn't even console myself with a new handbag as my favourite stall didn't have anything I liked, or maybe I was already too fed up to like anything.
So when there was no offer from Hubby to take me to lunch or even stop for a coffee we came home!
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As we were in town, rare for me, I said I wanted to look for some new bras......never easy as I've what Gok Wan would call 'big bangers' so very limited on styles that come in my size, plus I find underwired very uncomfortable making what's available even more limited. Well after two shops and in and out of changing rooms I gave up!
I couldn't even console myself with a new handbag as my favourite stall didn't have anything I liked, or maybe I was already too fed up to like anything.
So when there was no offer from Hubby to take me to lunch or even stop for a coffee we came home!
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Saturday, 19 March 2011
You throw and I'll catch....
I'm always amazed by the contagiousness of mood. Happy people spread happiness to everyone around them and those that are sad make those close to them sad too. I would love to be thought of as the person who always looked for the positive, a glass half full sort of outlook on life, and a person that made people smile, I often smile at strangers in the street or joke with the supermarket cashier or someone sitting near me in a waiting room! However, I do find open shared sadness is also quite healing at certain times and totally supportive when hugging a sad friend or family member!
I'm also amazed at my own lack of control when confronted with anger, when someone is loud in their anger over an injustice, whether I find it justified or not, I often find myself getting angry at the angry person, probably for making me feel uncomfortable.
But actually, now I think about it, there is a mood I never catch and that's indifference! If a person can never show excitement about something about to happen, never show appreciation for the efforts people have gone to on their behalf, never to do anything that is just to make someone else feel special, then they make me both angry and sad.
We all have choices each time something has an effect on how we feel and I will get angry and sad but hopefully try to move on quickly and get back to happy. So please think carefully before throwing me your mood, because even though I'll definitely catch it I may also throw it back!
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I'm also amazed at my own lack of control when confronted with anger, when someone is loud in their anger over an injustice, whether I find it justified or not, I often find myself getting angry at the angry person, probably for making me feel uncomfortable.
But actually, now I think about it, there is a mood I never catch and that's indifference! If a person can never show excitement about something about to happen, never show appreciation for the efforts people have gone to on their behalf, never to do anything that is just to make someone else feel special, then they make me both angry and sad.
We all have choices each time something has an effect on how we feel and I will get angry and sad but hopefully try to move on quickly and get back to happy. So please think carefully before throwing me your mood, because even though I'll definitely catch it I may also throw it back!
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Saturday, 12 March 2011
Some hugs can't be remote...
Seems to me there are more and more natural disasters happening around the world - so sad for those involved and for us that are so far away and can only send sympathetic wishes and perhaps a donation if we can. However, when family members are suffering their own personal disasters then I just have to drive over and give them a hug!
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Thursday, 10 March 2011
Breaking the silence...
Well I should have known that if I made public promises to do this and that to improve my life it would only end in silence, because I haven't done what I intended to do and was far too ashamed to admit it :o(
So it stopped me telling you about the books I've read, Gok Wan's autobiography which I really enjoyed but the pages were so full of spelling mistakes and typos that I was compelled to write a two page list to the publishers, of course I never heard back from them! Then there was the latest novel by Dawn French which was awful and actually put me off picking up another book for ages.
And I so wanted to mention the knitting I'm doing because I'm trying to be totally random and freehand with the design because R wanted me to paint more abstract which I find really hard and I've lots of wool to use up - see I could have got you all excited and forgotten to mention that it's only a scarf.
I would also have blogged about the great family get-together we had for christmas but two months late, postponed because I'd been ill when it had been planned for. So lovely to have a house full of family!
And I'm sure you would have liked to have read about my lovely week with O and R keeping me company last Sunday while Daughter took E for her first trampoline competition, thrilled she came 8th. Monday I'd have told you about O entertaining me and hubby for the best part of the day while Daughter took R and E to a drumming workshop. Tuesday was a day at the zoo for me with Daughter and Grandchildren and Wednesday O and I had fun at home so R and E could shop with their mum for special dresses for their dancing exam happening shortly!
But now you may never know what I've been doing unless I ignore that silly December post and break the silence.
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So it stopped me telling you about the books I've read, Gok Wan's autobiography which I really enjoyed but the pages were so full of spelling mistakes and typos that I was compelled to write a two page list to the publishers, of course I never heard back from them! Then there was the latest novel by Dawn French which was awful and actually put me off picking up another book for ages.
And I so wanted to mention the knitting I'm doing because I'm trying to be totally random and freehand with the design because R wanted me to paint more abstract which I find really hard and I've lots of wool to use up - see I could have got you all excited and forgotten to mention that it's only a scarf.
I would also have blogged about the great family get-together we had for christmas but two months late, postponed because I'd been ill when it had been planned for. So lovely to have a house full of family!
And I'm sure you would have liked to have read about my lovely week with O and R keeping me company last Sunday while Daughter took E for her first trampoline competition, thrilled she came 8th. Monday I'd have told you about O entertaining me and hubby for the best part of the day while Daughter took R and E to a drumming workshop. Tuesday was a day at the zoo for me with Daughter and Grandchildren and Wednesday O and I had fun at home so R and E could shop with their mum for special dresses for their dancing exam happening shortly!
But now you may never know what I've been doing unless I ignore that silly December post and break the silence.
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Thursday, 30 December 2010
Let's end the fatigue....
So another winter is passing with me feeling like crap, curled up on the sofa under a blanket. This year it's shingles plus a rotten cold and cough. I've read on lots of websites that shingles is brought on by stress.....well last year it was post viral fatigue syndrome that had me laid up for nearly three months andd told that was stress too! But I've never felt stressed or seen myself as a stressy person so what's that all about?
Well I've decided that the only person that can de-stress me is ME so I need to improve my FOOD (not a full log just the good foods), FITNESS (anything that gets me off my arse) and FUN (anything that I've chosen to do just cos I want to) and the rest should sort itself out hopefully.
So as much as I wanted to confess all in my very private blog I've been brave and started my confessional here....
So far today
FOOD = banana
FITNESS = braved a shower with my sore rash, going for a walk with the grandchildren in Rendlesham Forest
FUN = that'll be the walk too
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+FOOD = grapes and dates, but not enough to be my 5-a-day
FITNESS / FUN = walk ended up at Shotley instead but still nice. Fresh air didn't clear my head at all in fact it made it worse but glad I got out for a short while.
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Well I've decided that the only person that can de-stress me is ME so I need to improve my FOOD (not a full log just the good foods), FITNESS (anything that gets me off my arse) and FUN (anything that I've chosen to do just cos I want to) and the rest should sort itself out hopefully.
So as much as I wanted to confess all in my very private blog I've been brave and started my confessional here....
So far today
FOOD = banana
FITNESS = braved a shower with my sore rash, going for a walk with the grandchildren in Rendlesham Forest
FUN = that'll be the walk too
....
+FOOD = grapes and dates, but not enough to be my 5-a-day
FITNESS / FUN = walk ended up at Shotley instead but still nice. Fresh air didn't clear my head at all in fact it made it worse but glad I got out for a short while.
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